Like A Kiss for Silver

I never loved the way I should,
the way I would or the way I could
if you and I were close.

I know I get what I deserve but if
you are in the business of sinner's
prayers then I have a few.

The first is that I don't get in,
it's not that I don't want in, I just can't put
those good people through it again.

You know the wolf I am and the sheep of
your flock whose scars no pearly gate
can heal, just don't let me in.

Take care the damaged path I leave behind.
Unsalt the well on route 99 and plug
the generator back in, they're freezing.

I did my best not to do those things you
saw in all the headlines, to become
the things that should not be.

You know those nights I cried for you,
you know the silence you gave,
how bad I wanted to feel you near me.

I know this isn't your fault. Do you have
to die again for me to understand what
I mean to you, and what you mean to me.

My last request, Hide me away. Squeak me
in the side door, they don't need to
know you let me in.

I am so scared of the dark. Afraid of
what it means to cross this veil, you
so peacefully go, you move with surety.

Hide me from the night that closes in
on me, hide me from the truth of my soul,
from the grave waters of the Styx.

I am the wolf afraid of wolves,
they come for me like thieves in the night,
like a kiss for silver.

Take it back, take it back! I cannot hold it,
it burns my hand
like ash and coal from your volcano heart.

Love is not a victory march,
it's a cold and it's a broken,
hallelujah.